Yes, I think I am going to revive my blog. And what better way to do so than not breaking my habit of writing my Birthday blog. :) So yes, this blog will be very selfish-like, but, hey, it’s my Birthday, so I am going to write more-so about me.
23 was a great, busy year. Worked 3 different jobs. Went on two missions trips. Got a boyfriend (what?!). I lived life. I wanted to blog, and I would write, but often I wrote about things that Christians did that made me upset, and by the end of my writing I often just felt hypocritical, so I wouldn’t post it. Here’s to trying to post again.
Here is basically the 3 things I am going to work on when I am 24.
1. Discipline – As you can see below, in my year 23, I committed to resting more, even though I was going to start working more hours. Did I succeed? Not really. What I learned is that I am a person who struggles A LOT with discipline. I worked on being disciplined in so many areas of my life the past year, but as I sit here today, I still feel like I am a pretty un-disciplined person. I also feel as though I am in this never-ending season of working on this, but I’ve come to my mind that it is okay. So many times I want quick fixes in my life, but sometimes things take time. I am going to commit this year to continue to work on discipline. Discipline in spending time in prayer, in studying the Word, in resting, in exercising, in doing better work, in controlling how much I eat, in speaking God’s truth to my mind, in sharing the Gospel, in taking time for people. In all aspects of my life I can increase in discipline. Hebrews 12:11 inspires me to focus on this, because ultimately, I think God will use me more for the Kingdom, and I can simply know Christ better if I am more disciplined. Yes, I am creating S.M.A.R.T goals. No I don’t wanna write about it.
2. Seeking Wisdom – I wrote a blog (that I didn’t post) on how I think everyone in my generation is seeking happiness or some sort of experience or beauty rather than wisdom. In the ever increasing Ravi Zacharias sermons I listen to, more and more I don’t want to seek these things, but actually seek wisdom. Seek how God sees things. Seek what is actually important. Make life choices based on what is wise, not what is most pleasing to me. Why do I want to seek this? Because in the long run, I actually think I will be happier. I actually think I will be a nicer, generous, more loving, selfless person. I actually think I will be more satisfied than living for the next experiential high. I will know more of who God is, and have a more accurate perspective on life, and that is, eternal perspective. So yeah, seeking wisdom sounds better than to not.
3. Remaining in Christ - This is my favorite section of verses right now: John 15:1-17. When you read it, literally picture Jesus sitting right across from you, saying these words to you.
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
“I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.
“As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love each other.
This is what I want more in my life – to be so connected to Christ. To remain in him daily. To love like he loved. To serve like he served. To bear much fruit and to make more disciples, as he has commanded us to do. And in this position, more peace, joy, love, and a fulfilling life will be found.
Will I accomplish all these things? Hopefully take a greater step, but ultimately, these are probably life-long goals. Lord willing, He will bless me with another year to try.